The worst has already passed

When you feel so lonely and can’t sleep at night,
because everything gives you a fright.
The pain and the sadness takes control,
and once again you’re all alone.

I love darkness, I am afraid of the light, the only light I love staring at, is the moonlight.

I devote myself to acting happy,
but at night when I’m all alone,
some how it all spills out,
when no-one can see, and no-one can hear.
All of the pain and all of the fear.

Each day I live, the pain consumes,
What little sanity I have bloomed.
Like walking in a cloud of fog,
Falling down, sinking into smog.

Down in a black hole trying to escape depression,
But you can’t run away from what will always be your reflection.
And as you run away reality is getting nearer,
And instead of changing you, you try to change the mirror.
But what do you do when the mirror falls down?
Breaking apart as it hits the ground.

But now I am stronger; stronger than before.
Because I have realized, fear can only be bad if you imagine it more & more.
And sorrow comes with tears just as gray clouds come with rain,
And then it will pass quicker than it came.
So just be proud you didn’t cut yourself with the mirror’s glass,
And just know that the worst already passed.

©Copyright2016.AbhinavMajumder https://subduedflamboyance.wordpress.com

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79 Comments Add yours

  1. Powerful words. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Thank you for reading & providing a feedback. Much acknowledged.

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  2. tmezpoetry says:

    Love it. I feel we are stronger, especially when we can admit what we are affected by.

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    1. Yes, most certainly. Thank you for your lovely feedback.

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  3. Jhenxy says:

    Sometimes you need to be broken to be whole again. Keep going! Stay motivated and keep writing

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    1. Thank you & I, thoroughly believe in what you mentioned. Yes, indeed.

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  4. watermark17 says:

    So beautifully written and powerful! Know that you are never alone! Xoxoxo.

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    1. I am glad you liked it! Thank you very much for the feedback.

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  5. Varnam Gump says:

    Amen to that the worst already passed. Very touching poem. “you can’t run away from what will always be your reflection.
    And as you run away reality is getting nearer,” absolutely amazing lines. I have written on the same topic here – https://dailyluge.wordpress.com/2015/07/23/walls-of-waves/

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    1. The fact that you even remember those lines itself shows that they definitely did touch you. So very glad. And yes, I will definitely go through your blog & provide you a feedback.

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  6. Izrael says:

    We mask our feelings and put on a good show for others to see. To let them thought that we are alright and everything is fine when we are breaking inside. But at the end of the day, we fool ourselves when we tried to fool them instead.

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    1. To an extent, I do agree with you. Sometimes we do fool ourselves hiding behind a mask but I believe, the person who is able to smile on the outside in spite of grief rotting them from inside, is a strong one!

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  7. prachymohan says:

    “The calm on my face is an ongoing sin.” Love this line

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    1. I am so very glad that you could remember a line from the composition. Such feedbacks are satisfying.

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  8. Beautiful. I nominated you for the Miranda Sings Award. Have a wonderful day.

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    1. So kind & sweet of you! Thank you very much!

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  9. Nams says:

    That was absolutely great words. Every bit of it like you wrote out of my life. Beautiful read.

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    1. I am glad you found it relatable. Hopefully, you would be able to connect with future posts as well.

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  10. Saloni says:

    Hi! You follow my blog curiousandevolving, but I’ve switched to a new blog. I’d love if you could come and continue on this journey with me by following curiouslay.wordpress.com ! Much love ❤

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    1. Most certainly & good luck with the new one.

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  11. ninja network says:

    Reblogged with love

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  12. Very truthfully written and very powerful take care thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you! Good to know that you could relate.

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  13. amanpan says:

    Beautiful and touching. A powerful display of emotion, Thank you for the follow and nice meeting you.

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    1. Pleasure meeting you too. Thank you for the kind words of appreciation.

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  14. Little Voice says:

    Having suffered with depression I am most thankful for anti-depression drugs that keep me even. Thanks for following my blog.

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    1. Good to know that you’re doing better. However, I believe, all the strength comes from the desire to fight back.

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  15. Well said poem, Abhinav Majumder, and thank you for following Quantum Hermit.

    Fim

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    1. Thank you, Fim & it’s a pleasure going through your blog.

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  16. snehalmbhanuse says:

    It’s a very powerful poem. Especially the part “Down in a black hole trying to escape depression,
    But you can’t run away from what will always be your reflection.”

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    1. I am glad you found the poem to be powerful and touching. Thank you!

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  17. Joyful2bee says:

    Sir, your poetry is so moving and revealing. I hope you no longer suffer from depression. You should be proud and thankful that you are so gifted that you can touch so many lives with so few words in such a big way! Thank you for sharing so much with us who read your blogs.

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    1. I am so very glad that you like my poems and you’re an avid reader of my blog. And, I have had phases but no, I am not depressed anymore. I have had seen people near me who are severely depressed and many parts are inspired by them.

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  18. erbiage says:

    You are not alone.

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    1. I am taking that comment of yours on a positive note. None of us should ever feel alone and helpless 🙂

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  19. Thank you – I live with bipolar Affective Disorder and Epilepsy and have been Depressed for quite some time. Thank you for this.

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    1. I hope the poem instilled a bit of hope and a bit of optimism in you. Best wishes from my side.

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  20. Great post!! In these moments we become our own enemy if we allow our thoughts to defeat us..thinking positively sparks our inner light that shows us the beauty in conquering the darkness..i love this post

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    1. And, I love your opinion! Certainly!

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  21. Heartfelt. , deja vu and reading this poem , reminds me of a love that I went through

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    1. Good to know that you could relate to the composition. Thank you & good luck!

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  22. Well done! It speaks of hope and metamorphosis. I like the metaphor of sanity blooming. Very nice!

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    1. This was a wonderful feedback. Thank you so much for such an elaborate & lovely feedback.

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  23. E says:

    These pangs are familiar. I hope the worst has indeed already passed.

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    1. Good to know that you could relate to the composition. And well…I am not very sure if there wouldn’t be any bad phases in the future but I am certain, we grow stronger everyday.

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  24. This is incredible man. I especially liked the following lines:

    “Down in a black hole trying to escape depression,
    But you can’t run away from what will always be your reflection.
    And as you run away reality is getting nearer,
    And instead of changing you, you try to change the mirror.”

    The only way to combat depression is to change the way you see the world which ultimately will start to rekindle the damaged relation with self and all being.

    Brilliant poem man!

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    1. Thank you for mentioning your favorite lines from the composition. This very poem is very closed to my heart. I have lived depressed, I have relived life! And, also thank you for the wonderful piece of advice.

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      1. Glad you got past it and were able to be reborn. Your welcome man, and again, brilliant poem!

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  25. patnaikr says:

    Amazing expressions! Highly passionate and artistic. Makes for great read.

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    1. Always good to get such wonderful feedbacks! Thank you so much! My poetry is a blend of what my heart feels & head thinks! Thank you again!

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  26. Tabitha says:

    Oh my goodness, this is breathtaking. Would it be ok if I did a spoken word video of it on my YouTube channel, “gsus luvs u”? I will credit you in the video

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    1. Sure, I don’t mind as long as credits are provided. And, thank you so much!

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      1. Tabitha says:

        Awesome!

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  27. Ali Grimshaw says:

    Thank you for speaking out with this heartfelt poem to help others understand the struggles of depression. Keep on shining your light.

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    1. Thank you too for the note of appreciation. Once you overcome depression, you end up becoming stronger than ever. As it’s said, without darkness, there cannot be any light!

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  28. Bisma Naveed says:

    “Because I have realized, fear can only be bad if you imagine it more & more.”
    This is so true. All that we fear is basically just a part of our imagination; it is all a state of mind and can only affect you as much as you allow it to.
    I personally believe that we should face fear with courage and once we understand it, we should let it go.
    Abhinav, your writings are splendid ! Each piece is a work of art, beautiful in its own unique way. I adore the fact that you share such meaningful content that can help so many individuals in so many different ways. I definitely look forward to more from your end 😀

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    1. First of all, thank you so much for such an elaborate feedback. Much appreciated! I do try to instill positivity & provoke thoughts for any cause through my poetic compositions. Also, to quote Les Brown, “So many of us are not living our dreams because we are living our fears”. When we start to understand the fact that our longest fear carries our greatest growth, life gets easier. May we let our faith conquer our fears! Thank you, again! Great to find such a wonderful analyst of my poems in you & hopefully, a friend.

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  29. Bisma Naveed says:

    Your welcome! Not to be too optimistic but I believe every setback, ever loss gives us a reason to rise with better potential, to reach to great heights. But, we often happen to neglect the process and this is what leads to discontentment.
    It was nice talking to you, Abhinav. And I’m glad I came across your blog 🙂

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    1. Most certainly. I absolutely agree to that! Discontent is like ink poured into water, which fills the whole fountain into blackness. Meanwhile, good to talk to you too. Is it okay if I ask for your e-mail or any social network?

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      1. Bisma Naveed says:

        Yeah my email will be just fine 🙂

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      2. Wonderful then. Let me know your e-mail?

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  30. shaun Moser says:

    You have no idea how much I empathize with this post…

    One of my favorite song lyrics comes from Nina Gordon: ‘I prefer a sunless sky/ to the glittering and stinging in my eye…’ Darkness is safe, and comforting. Nighttime is a good place; there’s no more need to interact with people. You can just be… yourself, you know?

    This is gonna sound COMPLETELY insane, but here’s a tip: String white Christmas lights all around your living room/bedroom. They’re cheerful, and yet soothing at the same time. People are more influenced by sensory input than we realize, and the little things make more of a difference than we know.

    And yes, my friend… you ARE stronger than depression! Be well.

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    1. First of all, I am in a state of dilemma; what all to thank for, for you have given me enough reasons to thank you at least thrice! Thank you for emphasizing with the post, mentioning those lyrics & cheering me up already by your heartwarming tip! Thank you again! Do visit more!

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  31. Nisha says:

    This is so heart touching that while reading I could feel that these are my words… The story of last three months of my life..

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    1. Well, always a good feedback to get when readers say they could identify with the poem.

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    2. I hope while you were able to relate to the poem, you were able to seek some positivity too!

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  32. Patsy Porco says:

    I am so glad you liked my blog post so that I found this post. This is exactly how I am feeling right now. So sad, so fearful. Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone.

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    1. I am glad too! And something that has always worked for me- fear ends when faith begins 💚

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      1. Patsy Porco says:

        That is very true.

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  33. NeriSiren says:

    This one means a lot to me, personally.

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    1. It means a lot to me as well when someone like you could relate to it.

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  34. Dele Kitan says:

    “And instead of changing you, you try to change the mirror”. I felt this. I have been depressed, I have stood in front of the mirror, hoping my screams will change what I see. Being able to write even this comment out makes me hope that the worst is over. Thank you.

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    1. As the old saying goes, hope is what keeps the world alive. Believe that this depression is a temporary phase & there’s always light at the end of the tunnel! My best wishes to you!

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