Category Archives: Love

The worst has already passed

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When you feel so lonely and can’t sleep at night,
because everything gives you a fright.
The pain and the sadness takes control,
and once again you’re all alone.

I love darkness, I am afraid of the light, the only light I love staring at, is the moonlight.

I devote myself to acting happy,
but at night when I’m all alone,
some how it all spills out,
when no-one can see, and no-one can hear.
All of the pain and all of the fear.

Each day I live, the pain consumes,
What little sanity I have bloomed.
Like walking in a cloud of fog,
Falling down, sinking into smog.

Down in a black hole trying to escape depression,
But you can’t run away from what will always be your reflection.
And as you run away reality is getting nearer,
And instead of changing you, you try to change the mirror.
But what do you do when the mirror falls down?
Breaking apart as it hits the ground.

But now I am stronger; stronger than before.
Because I have realized, fear can only be bad if you imagine it more & more.
And sorrow comes with tears just as gray clouds come with rain,
And then it will pass quicker than it came.
So just be proud you didn’t cut yourself with the mirror’s glass,
And just know that the worst already passed.

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Glimpses of Benevolence

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I glanced upon a picture in the newspaper today…

a Christian missionary providing water to a Muslim village suffering from water scarcity,

,sharing a plain smile, hand reaching out – and I thought to myself, how gracious.

Then..the clouds parted just enough for sunlight to shine down on me

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touching my heart & a miracle occurred, not the kind others see – this miracle happened inside me.

I looked again at the picture & saw creation – unity, humanity, love, kindness without thought of religion or creed.

I saw the face of the Almighty…

I caught a glimpse of a news on television today.

Young male doctors providing free medical aid to poor village women for an entire week,

sharing a plain smile, hand reaching out – and I thought to myself, how courteous.

Then…the dark sky brightened with enough starlight to shine down on me,

touching my heart & a miracle occurred,

not the kind others flock to see – this miracle happened inside me.

I looked again & saw their souls – unity, humanity, love, kindness without thought of gender or greed.

I saw the face of the Almighty…

I took a peek at a webcast today.

A group of students from many cities building homes for poor families destroyed by earthquake,

sharing simple smiles,

hands reaching out – and I thought to myself, how soft-hearted.

Then…the smiles turned to laughter joyous enough to shine around me,

touching my heart & a miracle occurred, not the news making kind – this miracle happened inside me.

I looked again and saw heaven – unity, humanity, love, kindness, without thought of region or wealth.

 I saw the face of the Almighty…smiling, and I knew change was possible. 

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What You See Is Not Me

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You see me smile on the outside.

But that’s all you can see.

What if tears run down my face on the inside?

You hear me laugh on the outside.

But that’s all you can hear.

What if I’m crying out for help on the inside?

You smell the scent I wear everyday on the outside.

But that’s all you can smell.

What if it is the smell of a rotting body on the inside?

You watch me speak fluently on the outside.

But that’s all you can watch.

What if I stammer with words on the inside?

You feel my clear skin on the outside.

But that’s all you can feel.

What if I have hundreds of scars on the inside?

You taste my lips kissing you on the outside.

But that’s all you can taste.

What if my lips taste of blood on the inside?

You witness me facing everything on the outside.

But that’s all you can witness.

What if I am very tired on the inside?

You can tell I’m happy on the outside.

But that’s all you can tell.

What if l I’m dying on the inside?

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Dispirited Soul

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Have you ever loved someone,

But knew they didn’t care?

Have you ever felt like crying?

But knew you would get nowhere.

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Have you ever looked into their eyes,

And said a little prayer?

Have you ever looked into their heart,

And wished that you were there?

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How do you walk away from someone

And take the direction of friends?

Can you really reroute the course you have taken

And start all over once again?

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What good is love, that does not touch.

What good is love, that gives you only pain.

What good is love, that makes you run,

And lost out in the rain.

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An unrealistic dream

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Love in my life is like sand,

A strong gust of wind sifts it through my hand.

With you all my dreams seemed like coming true,

You’ve robbed me of those, what can I now do?

The hopes that we shared, the dreams that we saw,

Then you turned around leaving a scar that went raw.

The truth you tell me hurts more than your lie,

Once I learned it, I started to cry.

I still think of you lying in that bed,

And wonder if there is anything I could have said.

I wish you were still here,

But I know you’re still near.

You weren’t just my lover but my best-friend as well,

I gave you my all when in love I fell.

Into a million pieces I have been shattered,

Neither you cared, nor did it mattered.

Look at all the pain I’ve won,

I bet you think its all been fun.

You were my first kiss, my first love,

And now you don’t even care.

How could you just blow it away?

When you called us the perfect pair!

You said the words I love you,

But its obvious, things have changed.

I said the words I love you,

And my feelings are still the same.

You said I’ll love you forever,

But forever was not long enough.

I said I’ll love you always,

And I’ll mean it throughout nights & days.

I cannot imply to you what forever means,

Because your version of forever isn’t what it seems.

And my version of always,

seems like an unrealistic dream.

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Passion of Our Love

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Oh my baby,

Let me drive you crazy.

Give you what you need,

Your passion let me feed.

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Until you’re slated,

And truly elated.

Until you explode with pleasure,

That cannot be measured.

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In love, In passion,

So incredibly fine.

Your sexy hands baby,

Along my spine.

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Don’t hold back,

Let your passion flow.

Move with me,

Let yours actions show.

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Hearts beating wildly,

Sweat intermixed.

Oh my baby,

My love is at peak.

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Yes, you remind me baby,

You’re mine.

So sexy, so passionate,

Simply divine.

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A Reminder by Rain

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It was raining last night,
calm, gentle rain,
that tapped against my window pane,
& called me back from unsettled sleep,
to soothe a heart too numb to weep.

I pushed my window open wide,
to let the soothing rain rush inside.
It caressed my cheeks, lips, eyes & hair,
And for a moment I thought,
My beloved you were there.

I was in fact thinking of you today,
and these days, I actually do that a lot it seems.
You’re always in my heart by day,
at night you drift into my dreams.

I want to feel you in my arms,
Even though you’re so miles away.
I hope you still remember me deep in your heart,
Even if we speed on different paths today.

I want to be the music that you listen to,
I’ll be there in every song.
I’ll laugh with you and sing with you,
and comfort you when your days go wrong

I’ll be the moon as it dances
on the water cold and still,
For I have loved you always,
and I know I always will.

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Though you may not see me in physical form,
as you opted to live your life today,
Just close your eyes and think of me,
I will not be too far away.

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